Was it that long ago already? When I found the man of my dreams? I seem to remember the feelings that I had at the time. I've recently read my friend Laura's blog (www.smilinglaura.com/blog) and it makes me nostalgic. I cherish reading her thoughts as she's so far away from me. I love her so much and I miss seeing her and having our ritual night. I miss the quirks and sillyness of our time together. I'm sad she's in Cali, but psyched that she now has 1 REALLY good reason for being there. Hearing her talk about Garth (hee hee) reminds me of talking to her about the way I felt about Forrest. I remember being so excited to hear his voice on the other end of the phone. The giddiness I felt when he'd come and see me or we'd hang out. The feelings that I'd get when he looked at me from across the room, or just when he simply smiled at me. It was happiness. True and unfettered happiness. I miss the newness of these feelings, from the fledgling infatuation. Although, when these feelings mature and grow into love, they far surpass the "new" feelings and grow to a love that is welded deep into your being. When you live your life for the other person, that's how you know it's love. As, I watch (or read rather) these feelings grow with Laura I reminisce back to those days and it makes me love my husband even more. I'm sure she's beginning to suspect the feelings of love, it's a slow process of realization, but once it's there, there's no denying it. I have so much running through my head and don't know how to express it all. Though it's just my humble opinion, I think he's her other half. I'm glad Brian is hasta la vista, Garth is her lobster, her penguin if you will. Back to the feelings. I love remembering those feelings I had for my husband (I still have them, yes, only better!!) when we were dating. They were the best drug, they make you sappy, dopey and gooey and they only get better. When you add your first child and subsequent children to the mix, it's even better. Someone in a movie once said about children; "It's like having a piece of your heart walking around outside of your body." I have never forgotten that and I treasure just how true it is. I can't imagine my life without Logan. *great, I'm crying....sigh* he's my little redheaded ray of sunshine. One that I get to watch grow into a fine man someday. I cherish his little personality, his smile, his love. I love looking at him and knowing, I made him. I made half of this little being, and he's a walking, talking, laughing testament of the love that grows between two people. I look forward to many more little testaments of our love for eachother.
Jandre
